The Stillness in the Chaos of my mind

The the name of Allah

The Stillness in the of my mind

Here Alone in the stillness;
The piercing stillness ;
Driving me mad ;
The motionless sounds cave in all around me ;

Seeking refuge in pray ;
The motion of my pen ;
My caged heart yearning to be grow wings
To escape from this place :

But where will I go ;
Am I being punished or tested ;
I will be patient insha Allah ;

I have hope ,
Because not to have hope is to let the silence consume me
The madness take over ;
To let the win ;

I refuse to let it win to kill me ,
So I stand against it ;
The Stillness …..
And hope that Allah is on my side
Hope that there is something 4 me @ the end of my journey

But the Stillness is crushing me now ;
I am bleeding ;
How many battles I have lost ;
Times I have been hit

My heart is being bleed dry ;
And my body soon following it ;
You have not known pain until U spit blood
Until U crawl on your knees because U cant stand
All collateral damage in the War against the stillness

And yet I still stand against the stillness;
While many have fallen under the pressure caved ;
And dance in glee in front of me choosing the darkness to the torture of the stillness
And others have grown wings and blended
evolved to hearts becoming one ;

I stand against the Oceans of Stillness
Stillness as far as the eyes can see ;
The horizon flooded and coming in a endless stream to rush up against me
Oh Allah take me away from this fate
And remember me
And help and reward me .

ADHEIM