Having patients in your situation

No don't give up. Lots of ppl try for a while b4 they get through and i remind u of something , i remembered it during my interview 4 there are 2 ahadith from Nawaii 40 Ahadith

HADITH 23

On the authority of Abu Dharr Al-Ghafari, of the prophet is that among the sayings he relates from his Lord is that He said:p "O My servants, I have forbidden oppression for Myself and have made it forbidden amongst you, so do not oppress one another. O My servants, all of you are astray except for those I have guided, so seek guidance of Me and I shall guide you. O My servants, all of you are hungry except for those I have fed, so seek food of Me and I shall feed you. O My servants, all of you are naked except for those I have clothed, so seek clothing of Me and I shall clothe you. O My servants, you sin by night and by day, and I forgive all sins, so seek forgiveness of Me and I shall forgive you. O My servants, you will not attain harming Me so as to harm Me, and you will not attain benefiting Me so as to benefit Me. O my servants, were the first of you and the last of you, the human of you and the jinn of you to become as pious as the most pious heart of any one man of you, that would not increase My kingdom in anything. O My servants, were the first of you and the last of you, the human of you and the jinn of you to be as wicked as the most wicked heart of any one man of you, that would not decrease My kingdom in anything. O My servants, were the first of you and the last of you, the human of you and the jinn of you to rise up in one place and make a request of Me, and were I to give everyone what he requested, that would not decrease what I have, any more than a needle decreases the sea if put into it. O My servants, it is but your deeds that I reckon up for you and then recompense you for, so let him who finds good praise Allah, and let him who finds other than that blame no one but himself."p related by Muslim.

HADITH 19

On the authority of Abdullah bin Abbas, who said : One day I was behind the prophet and he said to me: "Young man, I shall teach you some words [of advice] : Be mindful of Allah, and Allah will protect you. Be mindful of Allah, and you will find Him in front of you. If you ask, ask of Allah; if you seek help, seek help of Allah. Know that if the Nation were to gather together to benefit you with anything, it would benefit you only with something that Allah had already prescribed for you, and that if they gather together to harm you with anything, they would harm you only with something Allah had already prescribed for you. The pens have been lifted and the pages have dried."

So know that what ever Allah wants to give to is either a something good or bad

as for the it is of 2 types

------ Either it is a test form Allah in case you remain patient , and make dua for releif form allah and remember my muslim sister that patients is the key to Jannh

Or it is Punishment in which case Allah punishes u for what you have done in this world so u don’t get it in the hearafter ,

Look at your self (this is properly a advice to me more than U) if u doing good then know it is a trial. HOWEVER if it is a PUNISHMENT then what u do is to REPENT to allah itz the easer thing to do , than suffering

As for the goodness then this is not because of your own action or some special knowledge that you have as some ppl believe but it is because of the mercy of Allah so be grateful for the good things your food ,clothes your ability to read and go to university and Allah will give u more

And Allah knows best